Huwebes, Pebrero 21, 2013

Friend

Friend

You are a friend I value so much.
A friend I treasure in my heart.
You are a friend I want to hold
And don’t want to lose-
A friend I want to keep forever.
Deep in my heart there’s a golden bond,
A special feeling,
A secret desire-
A secret love!
I wanted to shout this emotion that was trap.
“Friend I love you so much!
I wish that you would love me back
Not as your friend
But as your sweetheart!”

Pray for our priest...

Each of us has its own destiny. We all have a vocation that waits in our tomorrow. Some of us choose to journey the life of building its own family, while others prefer to travel this world alone and live a single life. In a way or another some chooses to serve the almighty creator. Yes, they chose to travel the road less traveled.
“Many are called, but few are chosen”. This is the most appropriate saying for our priest as what I have observed. You see, many students tried to enter a seminary but only few, can be counted in fingers that really finish it ‘till its end.  Few make it to ordination because the demands to them are such that most of them give up.
 I remember last year, I have the opportunity to meet some seminarians. They’ve been my classmate in one of my minor subjects. I’ve also had the chance to talk to one of them and he shares to me some of his sentiments. And as what I’ve observed some students only took for granted their being seminarians. (Sorry for those dedicated ones, I’m referring to those who might get hurt of the truth.) Some of these seminarians had poor English grammar and can’t even answer their test papers correctly. Some can’t resist the test of temptations and were seen dating even inside the library. (Well, they’re just humans.)
Also some of our priest left the ministry after some years of service. Isn’t it sad to hear? But sometimes instead of finding out the reason why they left, we condemn them. We often judge them and lose our respect with them. Do we consider their feelings? Do we feel a bit of sympathy for them?
The life of being a priest was not that easy, even that of students who are studying or taking the path of priesthood. I know not because I’m a priest but because in this world, life is always with hard things.
 They are also humans who share with us the conflicts that this hazy world brings. They commit the same mistakes with us. They are not men of steel or aluminum that can be controlled by remote controls. They were also molded through God’s miracles. And they have a really tough and long training which we never know how. Their journey matters most with great deal of discipline and dedication. A series of cleansing strategy and spiritual torture was given as a test for them. Before they were ordained they have to come into deeper thoughts and full acceptance. Maybe they have questioned themselves not just a hundred times but a thousand times before going it through.
They are deeply sensitive. But because of the society they’re in, they hamper themselves and disguise their feelings pretty well. When they’re hurt or lonely, they keep what they felt only for themselves. Truly they also have some friends, but only few of their problems can they open up to. They seem so distant. We mistakenly perceived them as being strong and not needing any help except for financial matters of the church purpose.
We really truly never care for their feelings because we are expecting too much from them. We go to them for aid and comfort, and they give it to us everyday, week after week, after month, after years, every time we run to them. Do you think our priest can handles all our problems? Yes maybe. But they can be drained also.
Some can set off for decades before reaching the end of the road. We will go on losing more and more of them if we continue to be insensitive of their own needs. They our not indestructible, they have care, emotional and loving needs that must received.
Being a priest or studying for priesthood calls for lifetime heroism. Not all can be heroes until they are emotionally and spiritually engaged. Until we too, provide answers to their needs. They go only when they can no longer hold on the loneliness, fatigue and emotional draining of their inner resources.
So let’s pray for them. Pray for our priests. They are our walls to lean on so as we for them. God bless us all.

Miyerkules, Pebrero 20, 2013

TARA!... Magsaya Tayo.. :)

Kamusta kaibigan? Matagal na rin tayong hindi nakapag usap. Palagi kasing "busy", kesyo maraming ginagawa, naghahabol ng oras, may "deadline" na kailangan magampanan. Pero sa sobrang ka-busy-han ko, nakalimutan kong tumatakbo pala ang oras. Hindi ko namamalayang unti unti nang nawawala ang dating kayganda na sinag ng bukang liwayway. Nakalimutan kong batiin ang mga tao sa aking paligid na nagpapasaya ng araw ko. Nakaligtaan ko ring ipagpasalamat ang araw kong saan nakahinga ulit ako ng preskong ihip ng hangin.  Naisapagwalang bahala ko ang mga tawa ng mga batang masayang naglalaro sa gilid ng daan, naghahabulan at nagkakantiyawan.

Hindi ko rin namalayang lumipas na pala ang tanghaling tapat. Ang pagsasalo salo sa aking mahal sa buhay ay hindi ko matandaan kung kailan huli kaming nagsamasama. Ni hindi ko na malasahan ang sarap ng mga lutong dati ay aking kinagigiliwan. Ni hindi ko na rin maalala ang mga kuwentong masaya naming pinag uusapan tuwing kainan. Nakapanghihinayang na sana napapasaya ko ang mga taong dahilan kung bakit nandirito ako ngayon.

Ngayong nasa kalagitnaan na ng hapon, gusto kong balikan ang umaga. Gusto kong ikutin pabalik ang oras kung saan wala akong ibang iniisip kundi ang maging masaya at magpasaya. Sa bawat minutong lumilipas, hinihiling kong ito'y papunta sa oras na ako'y nakatawa, malakas at maligaya. 

Ngunit alam kong wala na akong magagawa. Habang unti unti ng kinakain ng gabi ang paglubog ng araw, mananatili na lng akong nangangarap na sana magtagal pa ang oras. Na sana hindi pa huli ang lahat at muli kong mabigyan ng ganap na KASAYAHAN ang hiram kong buhay. 

Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na hindi dapat sayangin ang oras sa mga bagay na gusto mo. Dapat, ang bawat galaw o hakbang mo ay may karampat na dahilan kung bakit kailangan mong gawin ito. Na sa isang banda, habang gumagawa ka, ikaw ay nagsasaya. Ang buhay ay napakaikli upang ibuhos lamang sa kung anu ang gusto mong makamit. Bawat isa sa atin ay nangangarap na maging masaya, ngunit kadalasan, maling daan ang ating tinatahak. Ito yong daan na tayo'y nagiging kakaiba sa tunay nating pagkatao.

Simple lang ang buhay, at simple lang din ang kailangan nating gawin upang maging makabuluhan ito. Sabi nga, kailan man hindi na natin maibabalik ang mga araw na lumipas. Pero ang tao ay mayroong 365 araw, 48 na araw ay araw ng pamamahinga. Hindi man lang nakakalahati sa araw na tayo ay nagtatrabaho. Kaya bakit kailangang pati ito ay ating ilaan sa trabaho? Di ba't ito ang araw para sa ating sarili at para sa ating mahal sa buhay? Simulan na natin ngayon.

May natitira pang oras, Kaibigan. Tara! Magsaya tayo...



(whew! maybe i'm just trying to convince myself! hehehehe)
A simple reminder for thyself! :D